Plodding along.

I was born under what astrologers call the fixed cross. This means that the major astrological influences in my birth chart, my sun, my rising sign, my moon and my midheaven are all in fixed signs. There are four fixed signs in astrology, four mutable, and four cardinal signs. The fixed signs are the slowest moving of the signs when it comes to change but when they begin on a path of change, they do it with fixed determination and the change is permanent.

I am slow to change. Even when I have a sudden insight into the need for change, and have the understandings about needed change come to me on an intuitive level very quickly, it can take a long time for my emotional and physical body to catch up. I work determinedly when I’ve set myself on course though, and eventually I make my way forward but it can at times feel like walking through thick mud. All the while having the knowledge of what it is I need to achieve and where it is I have set myself to go. The only course left to me is surrender to the reality of being me and acceptance.

Surrender does not mean defeat; it just means allowing and acceptance. Without acceptance we have no compassion and we are only left with intolerance. Through my acceptance of myself I have learned acceptance toward others and this has allowed me to also have forgiveness and compassion. We are all individuals with our own set of circumstances and our own individual journey, even if our ending objectives might be the same.

I have also learned that this slow progress is a lesson in itself. Beyond the surrender, acceptance, forgiveness, and compassion I have learned, there is also patience, release, and respect. I learned patience and release out of need, and I learned respect through having to demand respect on my own behalf from those who would not show patience, acceptance, and compassion toward me when I most needed it, and this in turn taught me to have respect for others in their time of need and through their process. This has been a great lesson for me as an energy worker and healer.

Those who work in healing professions often have a great deal of impatience, can lack compassion, and can often be very disrespectful of the individual in need. There can be a “blaming of the victim” type of attitude when an individual isn’t progressing in the way the healer has decided needs to progress and when it doesn’t happen in the healer’s set time frame.

I’m not saying that an individual in need of healing has no responsibility in their own healing. But in our current medical health system, it is set up so that individuals are being conditioned to believe they have no responsibility and indeed aren’t even given the respect as responsible individuals in many cases at all. The medical professionals set themselves up as solely responsible, unless of course the individual does not progress and then it is the individual who is to blame for failing to heal.

I find this can also be the scenario with “alternative practitioners” as well, though one is more likely to find more understanding and compassion in this area, but not necessarily. There is a need for a shift in consciousness in our healing mentality across the board. I continue on my journey toward this end – however ploddingly.